The worst feeling in the world is not being able to express yourself when you really need to the most. Your mind and your heart  aren't on the same page and even when they are, you just can never find the right time to say what you need to say. I always say "HONESTY is the #1 rule in any relationship" but lately it seems as though I can't even be honest with myself. I find myself fighting to express myself b/c it seems as though it may not be the right decision. I have developed  bad habit of holding my tongue when I know there is a need to speak up; but for some reason I can just never get the words out. This is unusual for me bc I am a very expressive person (some people say too expressive). I am not sure if it is an emotional thing that I am dealing with or if I am too concerned with the feelings of others...WHATEVER it is though I need to get it in check like soon bc it is bringing about great confusion