^A lesson in a bad break up

^{This is just a breif summary >>>> So yesterday i got} dumped…and im not eaxctly sure if it was bc i was a horrible person (so to speak) or if they were just completely over me. I was truly hurt bc the same things i was being called out on were the same exact things that were being done…but in any case i had to respect their decision to let me go.

I always I find it interesting to know what people are really thinking about you and how they percieve you…and lastnight i got my answer…although it was quite hurtful, at the same time it was refreshing, bc they were true feelings (they weren’t holding anything back and that is fully respected). I have never really been good at “bad breakups” so i wasn’t sure exactly how to respond (other then to do what i always do and apologize), but that didn’t go too well…So i chose to let it go.

But, I cant lie it did make me think—i realized that my actions can affect people even when i don’t know they are. they expressed to me that i did things to make them feel isolaed—while i cant recall anything that i did clearly, there was obviously something that conjurred up the feeling otherwise it would not exist right?? So was i wrong??? should i have fought harder to keep them in my life??? that i will never know. Althouth it prolly wont ever be the same between us…to them i do apologize for discontinuing their feelings.

Good people are hard to come by, AND when you find them you do ur best to cherish them—i considered them to be a good person—so although i may not be wrong (or i may) i am responsible for my actions, so it is my job to learn from the mistakes that i've made and do better the next time around…so to that person i say thank you…thank you for allowing me to see the situations through the eyes of another!!!!!!!!!!