So there is this boy....

...and i love him so much its ridiculous, but he scares me. He makes me feel like the minute i get happy it will all be taken away. Its like one of those fairytale stories that you think will live on forever and then someone dies. i cant deal. When im with him im happy, when im not with him im wondering what he is doing, and when i think about him i get chills. sad thing he doesnt even know...see it took me awhile to even admit that i like him, and now that i did he wants to know more.but im scared to let him in....what do i do, do i let him in and risk being hurt or do i wait until im ready... But then by then will he be gone??.. he might get annoyed with waiting on me and, either way my heart is hurting. So im stuck....I love him with everything i have and for the first time i can truly say that it maybe more, and that SCARES ME. I cant keep putting him on the back burner and expecting him to be there when i need him, thats selfish--im only thinking about me and thats not fair to him. I want him to know that i care about him as much as he cares about me, but i cant help but feel like its all to good to be true. a good friend of mine told me that love is about taking risk, its about being able to walk out on the edge and risk everything you have to make it work with that one person. I want that with him. My heart crumbles when i think about him with another girl, but if i dont get it together there just might be another girl. So somone tell me what to do, how do i make this boy that i love so much love me back. How do i make him see that i care for him with every breath in my body. He is the one i call when everything feels wrong, the one im looking for when i want to be happy, and the one i think about when im sitting in he room with nothing to do. He is....that boy...that boy that i want to be with...

So there is this boy, and i love him so much its ridiculous