My Mommy....

My mother is my rock...without  her i would be lost...i tell her everything and she gives me the best feedback...not telling me what i WANT to hear but telling me what i NEED to hear. When i need her she is always there. I know I take advantage of her all the time but the older I get the more I realize that she has my best interest at heart. What would i do without her? I miss her so much right now. BUT unfortunately i have to learn to live life without her...I have come to realize that growing up, everything that I have gone through she has been there to bail me out. When ever i was in a situation that i didn't know how to deal with, she was there. She knows (literally) every detail  of my life, and she has lead me through it all. At this point in my life I have to learn how to deal without her.I cant keep depending on her to bail me out of situations that i put myself in; its time that i grew up. Whenever you hear me say " i miss my mommy," its probably because im dealing with a situation that i THINK i cant handle or i cant deal with myself...GROW UP SONIA...stop looking for your mommy to fix situations that YOU messed up. I will never learn things in life if i keep looking for my mommy to bail me out of every bad thing that happens to me...so if that means i cry longer so be it-- if i pout longer deal with it--if i write more thats cool, because at the end of the day im learning to take control of my own situations...I know that she will always be there for me when i need her but that doesn't mean i cant grow up and do things for myself. So to my mommy I LOVE YOU TO DEATH AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING....but its time for me to do this on my own.