June 5, 2012

So on the day of June 3, 2012 at around 8:30 or 9pm I got my heart truly broken for the first time in my life. I experienced the worse kind of sadness and pain (next to losing a loved one) that a female could ever have to go through. The first day, I handled it very well and showed no emotion, but it wasn’t until the next day that I really felt the brunt of what had actually happen to me. I cried, cried all day; talked about it all day to the ones who would listen and lucky for me I have the greatest support system. The thoughts of why God would ever let a person (especially a female) go through anything such as this and “why me?” was the infamous question. You see this kind of pain is not meant to make a girl hard to the things of the world; the idea of these lessons are to teach us the kinds of things we DON’T want in our significant others. Yes it’s painful and yes it hurts but you never realize your strength until you have to put it to the test. And needless to say females are probably the most strongest of the human species. I realize that the purpose of life is to live, and to live with no regrets, but even though living is the main goal that doesn’t mean that it will be easy. The lessons that we learn while we are young is preparation for the future and we never realize that until we get older. This is a feeling that I would never wish on anyone bc yes it hurts, but at the end of the day it was a lesson for me to learn. You see in my particular case I was so caught up in the feel good of what was happening at the moment that I started to force something that was never meant to be; I was being given signs and clues that lead to that day of heart break, but I ignored it bc I thought I could make something happen. The idea is not for to regret the things in life that make us mad or hurt us, but it’s to show us that if we are just patient (in whatever ) there is something better waiting for us out there; however, in order for us to appreciate that good thing we have to have gone through the bad in life to know what good feel like otherwise its all the same feeling to us. A lot of the time when females experience heartbreak we wanna linger, dwell, hang on, and talk about what just happen…no ma’am just let it go!! Let it go and move on bc what he doesn’t see in you another man will and appreciate it. So my advice to any girl that has ever experienced or will experience heartbreak is to know that he broke your heart bc he wasn’t equipped with the right tools to know how to take care of it, so let him go--- let him leave bc there is nothing he can provide to you that you can’t get yourself