Mistakes Don't Mean Your Life Is Over

  My life changed at the beginning of august this year when i made one of the most important choices i could 

   make.The only thing is, when i made the choice to go through with it, i wasn't making because i thought it was

    the right thing to do, i was making it because i was curious to see what changes it would bring to my life

            

        After it happened ( at first) i was fine, it was as if nothing had changed and i was content with the choice i had  

     just made, but as time dwindled by i became more and more aware of what i had done and i was 

     somewhat hurt by what had happened. I shared this story with many people and every time i shared it it 

       hurt that much more, but  then i realized that i had to live with what i did. My mother, friends,and other family

        members did their best to make me think rationally but it didnt help.

                      

  It wasn't until i decided that i had to take responsibility for the choice i made that i realize that God 

    would never place more on me then i could bare. But then i wondered...Did he know?? Did he see 

   me make that choice before it happened and if so why would he have let me go down that road???

     You see i had to learn that God gives us choices, and even though he already knows which one we 

                 are going to make he still allots us the opportunity to pick the right one. Unfortunately, we are so set 

                        in our ways that we never realize that the choices we make effect us in the long run...until the long run approaches

 us and its too late by then. 

Since then i have made some horrible upon horrible choices, from not thinking rationally to just running wild with no remorse for what could happen to me in the future.Im ready for it to be over now...im ready to go back to what i know and do the things i know are okay (in the eyes of God and my mother). I accept the fact that i have let many people down with the choice i made (and to them i apologize), but instead of letting it take me further and further off track, im choosing to stand my ground and go the right direction.

As a young lady, I have to understand my worth and  be willing to wait on those "perfect" situations that will validated me as "God's precious gift" I cant continue to make the same bad decisions and expect to get something good from it (because it doesn't work that way). I cant apologize for what i did because it didn't effect anyone but me, i can only say that (excuse my language) THE SHIT STOPS HERE....

No longer will i continue to let my one mistake deter me from the things i deserve in life. If i see it and i want, im going after it (depending on the circumstances), and if its not good for me, i will leave it alone until further notice.My heart hurts and im not im not ashamed to admit that but instead of dwelling on it im choosing to press forward and from here on out be the girl i was meant to be...Valued and Precious....

So to every girl (or person) who has ever messed up tremendously and is still suffering or hurting from the mistakes made in their past, allowing them to take a toll on the direction of your life,Im telling you that again you have a choice (the same way you had a choice before) to go forward and make the best out of the decision you have previously made, or continue to allow a bad decision ruin you for a lifetime. 

(as the quote says) Changing you direction in life does not mean walking away from unfinished business, it simply means deal with and accept the choice you made and go forward from there.